153 BPM

Well its been confirmed. We are pregnant! Went for my ultra sound to monitor my cysts and there it is a gestational sac. 156 BPM. After the ultrasound we went to see a doctor, the appointment was about fertility but I guess not anymore. It was funny because she was reading my chart and looking at our scans and tests and kept saying "so you were taking no treatments for this to happen? Nothing to cause ovulation? Are you sure?" She is a wonderful Doctor and was a huge help since Kay and I pretty much spent the 10 of the 14 days in Cuba sick. For any of you who are Celiac or know anyone who is Celiac DO NOT GO TO CUBA! it was awful. We were so sick they kept giving us bread or flour covered food even after we learned enough Spanish to explain it to them. Then the resort put milk in everything so I was sick on top of that. We are still sick, Kay spent the night last night with his head in a toilet. An ways back to the topic at hand, The Doctor has said I can take pepto for the next 3 days to fight the sickness but after that I ave to go back to the hospital and there is nothing else I can take. We did get a lot of info yesterday that we are still processing. So good news and then not so good news.
Good News
Baby has a gestational sac and yolk sac, strong heart rate. I have 0 cysts to be found to endanger little one (I have never had an ultra sound where I didn't have at least 2 whoppers! Score!). Baby is in a good position in my uterus so no worries there.
Not so Good News
By my cycle they figure I should be around 8 weeks 3 days, but the only date we could have conceived baby should be 8 weeks 5 days, baby's sac size is 7 weeks 6 day. So good right? Baby is measuring 6 weeks 2 days. So small for what we expect. Doctor isn't jumping to conclusions but I have to go for another ultrasound in 2 weeks to monitor growth. She said if its not progressing like she wants then I will be flying back to see her. Did I mention shes an 16 hour drive from our house, in bad Canadian winter roads. She also thinks I have an auto immune disorder and has sent me to a specialist. This would explain the loss of food groups for me, but would mean I may lose more. She she is also worried about, shes concerned that I will struggle getting enough Calcium during this pregnancy. Rice milk and Soy milk here I come! Finally my home doctor, hes the only doctor I have ever had that I wold be comfortable with delivering my baby. But I found out today he does zero prenatal. He refusing to deliver babies. Once they are born he will resume being my family doctor but for now I have been pushed off to a team of doctors in a town an hour and a half drive away. And that's if everything goes good. If baby, which I have started to call JJ since Kays first name is James so James Junior, is healthy then I have no idea who will deliver him, if hes not healthy I have to travel back 16 hours south to deliver at the hospital here. Oh and I checked I am not allowed to work on ambulance past 3 months so I will be cutting down on that ASAP. Finally that doctor was so shocked that would could get pregnant naturally she told us that its very unlikely to happen again, kind of the winning the lottery twice thing. 
This is crazy. We wanted a baby and were prepared to travel to India to grow our family. And no we have this beautiful baby growing inside me, I started to cry when I saw the heart beat I didn't know it was possible to love something so much so fast. Heck even my cats I didn't want to keep when we first got them I planned to give Newman away till he was 6 months and no one wanted him. But this little JJ.... I want to hold her/him in my arms right now and protect them. I want to love them so much.
Well its 5 am here, jet lag sucks and Cuba belly sucks. guess I better make breakfast and pack for our flight home. Its gonna be a long day we are debating telling the parents today (just the parents since its early).

Chaos

As we get closer and closer to our two week holiday in a tropical location things start building up. Have to do this, have to run and get this done before we go! I have a stack of paperwork I have to do before we go but keep postponing it (note I am posting this instead of doing paperwork). Its been manageable until this morning. I was heading to work at 8am and caught gravel with my tire and started to fishtail. I compensated in the wrong direction and proceeded to spin completely into the ditch. After the two loud bangs and when the spinning stopped I turned off the car and got out. I had hit a barbwire fence but the engine and body of my car was OK (in the dark!). I called Kay (I was 1km from home!) and asked him to come get me. I started the car and pulled it out of the barbwire and out of the field. Luckily it was our field with our cows! I popped a tire and broke a fence post. The body of my car is scratched to shit with barbwire and there is a small dent from the post I broke (good thing it was an old post). Shaken up but OK I waited for Kay. His dad beat him there and after making sure I was OK he gave me a huge hug (L is a good man and I both respect him and love him). Then he took me to get a different car so I could still get to work. I was very lucky, I always wear my seat belt, I hit a spot int eh ditch that was level or I would have flipped, and I wasn't going fast enough to do anything but tip the car. So Lucky. But I have to say that after I had a hard time not touching my belly and thanking anything and everyone that I wasn't hurt and that hopefully if there is a little one on board he or she wasn't hurt either. 20 days till we see a doctor and find out if I am pregnant. I keep crossing my fingers and toes. So scared I will lose this baby. I have stopped taking all of my medications (my doctor told me that the moment I am pregnant I would have to stop because they can damage a baby), I have canceled my scuba trips in Cuba ( I was so looking forward to increasing my certification! oh well baby's health matters more). Hmmmm I can't think of anything else I should do while in Cuba? I don't drink or smoke. Can anyone think of something I will have to stay away from or stop while on vacation?
3 more days and off we go!